I'm swimmingly going through change at a rate that I have never really experienced before or since. I have accomplished my swimming lessons and soon I am preparing to return to the social eye for the better and as a changed person now. The times of lies over change are over and now I am pushing what I needed the most, I am pushing to open myself to the bright and mellow reality of life both on and off the screen. The number of times that I have lied about change have gone out of the window and I am effectively moving into a zone that I needed the most, a zone of rest, a zone of peace of mind, and a zone of forgiveness. What I did before took an impact on my own mental health and now the push that I desperately needed to change has now taken effect. Maybe not full effect by now but I can assure and promise that the Malenkov tomorrow will be much better than the fearful, weary, and immoral one that was before. Change is hard if you have little will in it but change is easier if the will inside you doesn't prevent you much from committing to it. I've committed to it over the month that I've been gone. Although change is good for me I must look back on the things that I did now and then, the good doesn't always wipe all of the evil away and I must look back on both if I don't want to return to the person I once was. I must keep a small memory of it in my mind so that I can promise to the public, to the people I've upsetted and NOPEXDD himself that my change is no longer something plastered on the wall, it is a reality that I am willing to write on the wall permenantly, change is never taken immidiately sometimes, it is taken with time and with observation. That is the path that I choose to go on, a slow but certain change for the benefit of others and the benefit of myself.

UPDATES:

• Arts will be uploaded soon, please be patient (I apologize for being so procrastinative.)
• Still off from Discord, I promise and swear to return when I know that my change into something that I will be is complete.