I'm swimmingly going through change at a rate that I have never really experienced before or since. I have accomplished my swimming lessons and soon I am preparing to return to the social eye for the better and as a changed person now. The times of lies over change are over and now I am pushing what I needed the most, I am pushing to open myself to the bright and mellow reality of life both on and off the screen. The number of times that I have lied about change have gone out of the window and I am effectively moving into a zone that I needed the most, a zone of rest, a zone of peace of mind, and a zone of forgiveness. What I did before took an impact on my own mental health and now the push that I desperately needed to change has now taken effect. Maybe not full effect by now but I can assure and promise that the Malenkov tomorrow will be much better than the fearful, weary, and immoral one that was before. Change is hard if you have little will in it but change is easier if the will inside you doesn't prevent you much from committing to it. I've committed to it over the month that I've been gone. Although change is good for me I must look back on the things that I did now and then, the good doesn't always wipe all of the evil away and I must look back on both if I don't want to return to the person I once was. I must keep a small memory of it in my mind so that I can promise to the public, to the people I've upsetted and NOPEXDD himself that my change is no longer something plastered on the wall, it is a reality that I am willing to write on the wall permenantly, change is never taken immidiately sometimes, it is taken with time and with observation. That is the path that I choose to go on, a slow but certain change for the benefit of others and the benefit of myself.

UPDATES:

• Arts will be uploaded soon, please be patient (I apologize for being so procrastinative.)
• Still off from Discord, I promise and swear to return when I know that my change into something that I will be is complete.

I will take a break from Discord for a while to give myself some much-needed time to both rest and begin to change for the better. I've already began going to a local Gym and have even taken up swimming lessons for the weekdays and the weekend. Art will be posted at random along with some requests (I apologize again in advance for my shit time management) that I have made for a long time. In the future I can promise everything will be better for me, both physically and online. Thank you and have a good day.

Requests:

• Closed, DictatorGeorgyMalenkov #9118 to inquire.

Schedule:

• Inconsistent, but will be uploading none the less.

I would just want to bring your attention to something that I had let go of for far too long, and I should've brought all of this up earlier, but no, the past has caught up with me and the best way to deal with it is to deal with it now. I just want to apologize to the people that I've, over time, offended, disgusted, despised, and hated over the many bad deeds that I have made over my career as an artist and good friend of a fellow Youtuber. I want to apologize for what I did with others back then, such as manipulating people and showing them my disgusting and ill-behavior towards the users of the communities I was associated with. I know that to some people this will just fly by as something not taken seriously, and thrown aside by those whom I've offended over my time in the NOPEREICH. My flawed indecency and disgusting behavior top this all because of my lack of awareness and immoral handling of the situation. It led me to ERP with a dozen people from the communities and servers I was in on Discord. The people that I've offended, the friendships that I've lost, the opportunities that I've hindered have all culminated into a drama that has spanned the better half of a week after my subsequent banning from the community that I have offended, disgusted, and manipulated with my selfish desires for myself. Along with this, the way that I dealt with the developing situation was poor and appalling considering the things and actions that I've done with other people. I want to apologize to @NOPEXDD for stooping so low on this even though as his prodige, I think he will never consider this apology as legitimate from me. I also admit to the tracing of one of NOPE's arts for my own selfish, disgusting, and manipulative desires, and I cannot apologize properly for that. Considering how much drama has developed, I cannot come up with a strong enough expression of regret over my actions in the past 5-6 months. The roleplaying eventually hindered my progress in school and my relationships with other people in the NOPEREICH (One of the servers I was banned from). I admit and take all of the blame for the incidents and things that I did with other people. I had let this go on for too long and I want to apologize to those whom I've offended, disgusted, and manipulated for my selfishness. Along with all of these going-on, I have exploited myself and have even made a few attempts to take my own life, these coupled with the already mentioned reasons are some of the pillars that has stacked against me. Suicide is something that should never be attempted and anybody who has problems with this matter should seek immidiate help as soon as possible to avoid futher injury. As for me, I'm working on rebuilding myself to be a better person, much better from who I was back then and I will not stop until I find myself and when others see me as a changed person, far from the realities that plagued me, and far from the problems, actions, and motives that got me here in the first place. I cannot change what I did that is for certain, but I can shape who I will become in the future, a better person with proper goals in life, away from the things that had hindered and disrupted my progress. To most people my apology will have no merit, but I will work hard to become a better person for the community, give my apologies and regrets to the shameful and disgusting deeds that I've done to other people, and cement and secure my place in real life and socially. Not as a person who is neglectful, in denial, and forever in doubt over his actions, but as one with a permenant stain on himself that is the lesson that he was given to stay in line and not stray off it.

I'm sorry for the people who will see this but I am unsure if I will ever use discord again because of what's going on personally. A, because this is partially my fault because I sought to use discord while attending my online classes, my parents recognized this and built a fucking Berlin Wall around it, in short they built an internet firewall around it. Not to mention blocking YouTube, my iPhone app store and slowing down my internet speed by a margin, because of the current situation right now I will be unable to go back onto discord for an uncertain ammount of time. And B, they did this because my dream to earn money from YouTube was considered as "Improbable" and "Insufficient" for me to do on my journey to becoming an adult, I of course cannot see any idea why that could be a problem for me.

All requests will be continued but posted here, if you wish to make a request please DM me here on Newgrounds, for those peeps on discord who are rejoicing that this has happened to me, you are lucky I am not, period.

Happy new year guys! and a brief update on what I have done so far:

*next to nothing..* well not really, I am in the midst of a few requests, personal arts, and occassional storymaking in notepad, but aside from all of this the new year has gone well for me. Hopefully by the end of the schoolyear I can open requests again (April or May) as the last 2 quarters of school will need a lot of shit-luck to accomplish in a short ammount of time not to mention the entire school year itself. I wish you all a happy new year and to stay safe from the new OMICRON and european COVID variants!

just got final shot of vaccine, skol has also come to take my soul, although your requests are still pending (im still making them and I feel like a shithead for not completing them in the last span of 2 months.)

His POV:

Staring down 12 soviet soldiers that have knives, PPSh-41's, grenades, and belts in hands while your entire platoon is completely gone.

(I AM NOT PROMOTING ANY HATE SPEACH, RACISM, OR SPONSORING ANY HATE GROUPS. THIS IS ONLY AN ART WORK-IN-PROGRESS.)

Hooman and CB arts and wip's coming this weekend or this week

"Yes Sir, my name is Jiro Horikoshi, I am pleased to be working on the Falcon project!"

• Jiro Horikoshi, Mitsubishi Heavy Industries Aeronautical Designer.

(New art coming soon! And yes that is a seaplane.)

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