I would just want to bring your attention to something that I had let go of for far too long, and I should've brought all of this up earlier, but no, the past has caught up with me and the best way to deal with it is to deal with it now. I just want to apologize to the people that I've, over time, offended, disgusted, despised, and hated over the many bad deeds that I have made over my career as an artist and good friend of a fellow Youtuber. I want to apologize for what I did with others back then, such as manipulating people and showing them my disgusting and ill-behavior towards the users of the communities I was associated with. I know that to some people this will just fly by as something not taken seriously, and thrown aside by those whom I've offended over my time in the NOPEREICH. My flawed indecency and disgusting behavior top this all because of my lack of awareness and immoral handling of the situation. It led me to ERP with a dozen people from the communities and servers I was in on Discord. The people that I've offended, the friendships that I've lost, the opportunities that I've hindered have all culminated into a drama that has spanned the better half of a week after my subsequent banning from the community that I have offended, disgusted, and manipulated with my selfish desires for myself. Along with this, the way that I dealt with the developing situation was poor and appalling considering the things and actions that I've done with other people. I want to apologize to @NOPEXDD for stooping so low on this even though as his prodige, I think he will never consider this apology as legitimate from me. I also admit to the tracing of one of NOPE's arts for my own selfish, disgusting, and manipulative desires, and I cannot apologize properly for that. Considering how much drama has developed, I cannot come up with a strong enough expression of regret over my actions in the past 5-6 months. The roleplaying eventually hindered my progress in school and my relationships with other people in the NOPEREICH (One of the servers I was banned from). I admit and take all of the blame for the incidents and things that I did with other people. I had let this go on for too long and I want to apologize to those whom I've offended, disgusted, and manipulated for my selfishness. Along with all of these going-on, I have exploited myself and have even made a few attempts to take my own life, these coupled with the already mentioned reasons are some of the pillars that has stacked against me. Suicide is something that should never be attempted and anybody who has problems with this matter should seek immidiate help as soon as possible to avoid futher injury. As for me, I'm working on rebuilding myself to be a better person, much better from who I was back then and I will not stop until I find myself and when others see me as a changed person, far from the realities that plagued me, and far from the problems, actions, and motives that got me here in the first place. I cannot change what I did that is for certain, but I can shape who I will become in the future, a better person with proper goals in life, away from the things that had hindered and disrupted my progress. To most people my apology will have no merit, but I will work hard to become a better person for the community, give my apologies and regrets to the shameful and disgusting deeds that I've done to other people, and cement and secure my place in real life and socially. Not as a person who is neglectful, in denial, and forever in doubt over his actions, but as one with a permenant stain on himself that is the lesson that he was given to stay in line and not stray off it.